Sleep tight my beautiful children. I could never have imagined a year later I would be kissing each one of you goodnight. I love you more than you will ever know.
Tuesday, March 5, 2013
It has been one year...
since we saw four beating heartbeats on the ultrasound. That moment was the biggest shock I have ever had and I am sure nothing will ever top it. The post, And then there were FOUR, that I did one year ago was one filled with so much fear. Fear for the babies I was carrying, fear for my own life, and fear of how we would ever be able provide for seven children. I wish I would have been able to rub my hands on a crystal ball at the same time that I was looking at four tiny gummy bears via ultrasound. If I could have seen the future I would never have had a moment of fear. I would have seen that God was going to take care of everything. We would be blessed with two perfect little boys and two beautiful girls. I would have known that my pregnancy would not be a comfortable one but I would make it through and would have given anything for it to have lasted longer. That crystal ball would have also shown me that Paul would be offered a job with a great company that provides for our family and at the same time allows him flexibility to be a dad to his kids. But instead of seeing that crystal ball we have lived through each moment of fear and in the end have been so amazingly blessed. March 5th will always be a day that I look back and remember how much our life changed and I will always be thankful that it has turned out just the way it was intended to be.