March 31, 2012

3 months on Monday!

So to me 12 weeks doesn't sound that far along but three months sounds like we are getting somewhere so that is what I am going to go with. Another week down and I am so excited. I just want to get far enough along that I can feel my kiddos moving around. I lay with my hand on my tummy whenever I wake during the night, which is quite often, to try and see if I can feel any flutters. Nothing but gas movements so far!

So today we went to Buy, Buy Baby. A baby store we had never been to before. We use to have the most awesome baby store in town that was locally owned and they had everything you could want as far as furniture, bedding, equipment but of course they closed down in time for us to have the quads. It was a rainy Saturday and we needed an outing so it was Paul's idea to head to the baby store. Aubrey wanted to buy everything cute for her baby sisters. Hopefully we have one girl otherwise Aubrey will be dressing her brothers in pink! Natalie needed to turn on every crib mobile and Drew tried out the strollers. The whole process only intimidated me more knowing that we actually will have to get ready and get stuff for these munchkins. But I am so excited that none of this baby stuff will ever find its way into storage again. We will be done with baby gear forever after the little ones and that is something to celebrate!!! A huge garage sale will be had in about two years!

People have been asking how I am doing with the idea of having quads. To be honest I am not so worried about once they are here. I know all you supertwin moms can laugh right now at me but I know we will be able to handle the babies once they are all home. We may be tired, exhausted  and pulling out all of our hairs but we will have some kind of a routine going. I am having the hardest time with the unknown of the pregnancy. When will the morning sickness let up, when will I need to go off work, who will help with the kids, when will my cervix start causing issues, will I know if I am having preterm labor, when will bed rest start, how will Paul and I not murder each other while I am on bed rest, how far can I make it to give these kids the best chance at life? These are some of the issues I am struggling with each day. I hate surprises, don't ask how I can wait to find out the sexes, and am such a planner. The no control aspect of this pregnancy must be a lesson from God. So as long as I can keep checking off the weeks of this pregnancy I can deal with the fact that we are going to have four babies hopefully in August.

And as far as how I am feeling this last week let's just say the throwing up did not correlate to the antibiotics. I am going to leave you with some quotes from our house this week:

*Mommy, do you need a bucket or can you make it to the potty?

*Mommy's throwing up, she needs her privacy.

*Mommy are you going to be okay at work? Yes I will be okay. Do they have a potty you can throw up in? Yes they do. Will you come home if you feel really sick, Yes. But mom who will give the babies their milk at your work if you leave? (loved Natalie's logical thinking in this one!!)

*If you get really sick we can push you around in a wheelchair.

*From Paul: It doesn't matter to me if we go out on Saturday night. I always feel good in the evenings, you don't.

I meet with my ob on Thursday for my first official ob appointment and am looking forward to it. We also have another ultrasound on April 11th, Paul's birthday. But first we must celebrate the fourth birthday of our two favorite girls, Natalie & Aubrey, on Monday! They are so excited and will be even more ecstatic when they see their new bikes and helmets that Grandma and Grandpa Lesnau have gotten them. I can't wait to hear their screams Monday morning. So Happy Birthday Natalie & Aubrey- mom and dad love you with a cherry on top!

12 week belly shot

All seven of my kiddos!!!

March 24, 2012

Come on Week 11

It has only taken me five extra days to post the ultrasound pictures from last week! If I wouldn't spend so much time sleeping these days I could get so much done. This week hasn't been awful except I have been vomiting this past week but am now done with my course of antibiotics and hoping the vomiting was because of those darn pills. I am praying that I find a great deal of energy and food cravings heading into the second trimester. A lady can hope! I did take the kids out for lunch today, because daddy was working and I despise cooking these days, and found a new favorite!! An Itialian BMT, toasted of course, with extra pickles. It was so yummy and may have to do that one again very soon. It was loaded with lots of southwest chipotle sauce, cheese and olives to give those babies some fat. 

We have started to talk more about these babies actually joining our family this week which has been fun. When people congratulate me I can now say thank you with a smile on my face unlike the previous weeks where I just kind of stumbled through a thank you.I also think I am going to do the babies room with grays and white as the main theme with color added in through pictures, a rug, and bedding. I so want a wall with alternating gray/white strips. Paul is not excited to try and cover the red paint currently in that room with white. My response, "You'll figure it out!" The nursery will be right off our living room so I don't want it to yell baby. Okay maybe four cribs, a changing table, a rocker may scream baby all on its own! I will fill you in more on the nursery as we actually get started on the room. 

As far as names we are pretty much set with the boys. We even have a fifth boy name picked out but are very fine if one doesn't ever get used. I don't think we will pick a #1, #2 favorite encase we only have one or two boys. Instead we will take all five into consideration when we take a look at these young men and decide what fits them the best. So once these kiddos are here it may be a little while before they have a name besides gummy a, b, c & d. And if we have more than one girl we are in trouble! We have one girl name that I am in love with and other than that nothing, squat and not even any runner ups. Good thing we have a couple months to go. 

Okay now for the pictures of my love bugs!!

Bunk beds!! Gummy A bottom left, C top left, D top right, B bottom right

Baby C (top) Love seeing his left arm waving and his legs up in the air.

Baby on the right (no idea which one it is!) rubbing his eyes.

Mommy's belly at 8 weeks

March 19, 2012

Week 10 ultrasound and still only four babies!!

Conversation I had with Natalie after our appointment:
N: How many babies in your tummy today mommy?
M: Still four.
N: Oh okay (with a sound of disappointment)
M: Is that okay?
N: Yay that will be okay.

Let me tell you how relieved I was to only see four babies today! We had a wonderful appointment  and all the babies are doing great. We got back to the ultrasound room and right away the tech congratulated us. It was so nice to have people actually look us in the eye and be happy for us. So different than two weeks ago at the fertility clinic. For the first time in two weeks I didn't feel alone and like I was infected with a parasite but instead was taking care of four little miracles. I needed this more than I had realized. As soon as the tech put the wand on my belly all four babes were right there. The were stacked two across and two wide. They looked like they were all in bunk beds. They are approximately one inch long (a kumquat in size). As soon as we saw all four I quickly asked if they all still had heartbeats. All week I was telling myself that I would be okay if one had passed but today when I asked that question I held my breath because it took the tech a minute to find all the heartbeats. I was nervous that one wouldn't have one and it was in this moment that I realized I wanted all four babies to make it because they are ours. All four had great heartbeats with rates between 158-171!

All the kiddos were moving around and doing flips and it was so neat to see them looking like mexican jumping beans. They have little arms and legs, the head is huge which makes them look like skeletons, their yolk saks are all disappearing as the placentas are taking over. All four have their own placentas and it looks like we have four fraternal siblings taking up my space. The girls are faternal and I love that they have their own personalities and their own looks. They are their own person and I am glad the quads can each be their own person too.

After the tech was done with all her measurements the doctor came in and scanned me too. He then needed to check my cervix which I will explain in a minute. After this was done we met with the doctor and I was able to ask my two pages of questions. I love the doctor I had today and felt so taken care of. He didn't rush me and answered all the questions we had. The perinatalogist office has four doctors and we could be seen by any of them and we will not know who will deliver us until the day it is decided I need to have the babies. I am okay with this because they all have lots of experience.

I am going to review some of the questions I had and the answers that were given to us to give you the same information that Paul and I have:

How long can I work?
Working will be based on how I am feeling. Anytime that I say I am done they will take me out. If things are going well then they would let me work til 20-22 weeks. I only worked til 17 weeks with the twins and I will not push it. I will listen to my body because it is not worth risking these babies to work a couple extra weeks.

What does my diet need to be made up of (protein, fats, carbs)?
I will be meeting with a nutritionist that will help me with diet but for now the babies are only an inch long so I don't need to be eating a milkshake every hour to get my calories in. I need to eat a balanced diet and eat small snacks every couple of hours. I am also suppose to get ensure drinks to help with the calories. The doctor told Paul that if I don't like vanilla don't buy it but if I like chocolate buy it by the cases.

Can I occasionally have sushi?
He was the wrong doctor to ask because he doesn't like sushi but no because its not worth the risk of bacteria. Darn if he would have said yes that would have been dinner!!

I have Von Willebrands disease and had bleeding issues after the twins, what is the plan to avoid this?
I will be meeting with a hematologist to make a plan. Good chance of bleeding issues again since I have twice as many babies but should be okay through delivery but may have the problem in the week after the babies are born.

Will I need a cerclage (cervix stitched closed to prevent dilation of my cervix)?
We had a long discussion on this today. My cervix was long and closed today which is how we want it. Once it gets below 2.4 it is very concerning. My cervix will be watched very closely throughout the pregnancy. Today we were greater than 4. At this point he does not want to do a prophylactic cerclage because of my history with carrying the twins to term with no preterm labor or dilating. He said you are born with a certain type of cervix and that is not going to change. It could shorten at anytime and a cerclage could be in my future but for now it is not needed.

Can I see the chiropractor and get massages?
Yes as long as they are experienced in prenatal massages and treatments. My chiropractor has worked on a mom of quads last year so I can't wait to get back to him.

When to expect hospital bed rest?
He can't tell me exactly and can't compare with other quad moms because every ones body handles high order multiples differently. Preterm labor and shortening of my cervix can lead to hospital bed rest. He said to be honest to expect it between 24-28 weeks.

When will the babies get steroids for lung development?
Will be based on when I am first hospitalized. Each doctor in the practice has different views but once I start having issues they will think about the steroids. I will be pushing for these sooner rather than later.

We do NOT want to know the sexes, can this be placed on the front of the chart?
Yes. The doctor and tech both said this was going to be so much fun not knowing. I doubt there are too many quad parents that don't find out the sexes!

What is my risk of having pupps again (severe itching on stomach, arms and thighs)?
High. So not excited. This was the worst part of my pregnancy with the girls. This was the worst news I had all day.

We are going to Disneyland in about four weeks. Is it okay to go?
Yes as long as I rent a scooter. Can you just see Paul pushing our triple stroller and me driving next to him pregnant, riding a scooter? Oh the fun we will have!

If you made it this far you are awesome. Today was a great day and an emotional weight has been lifted. We have a very long road to go but for today everything looks good. We continue to ask for your prayers for the me and the babies. Paul also should have a job interview on Friday so we also ask for prayers for him so that stress can be lifted off of us. Thank you for everyone for the amazing support we have received in the last four weeks. It has meant so much to our whole family.

Pictures from the ultrasound will be posted tomorrow. I'm exhausted and need to go to bed!

March 16, 2012

Week 9 almost complete!

Well the reality of having quads has started to set in. I think I will get truly excited once we see the kiddos again and once I start feeling them move around in my tummy! And talking about my tummy, I can't believe how much it grows with each day. Sometimes when I get home from work Natalie's first comment is "whoa mommy, big tummy"! Nothing like a three year old's honesty. The nausea has been under control with medications. Still have a hard time eating and as far as getting 4,000 calories in each day, not even close. That's something I really need to improve on so I can get these babes nice and chubby. Exhaustion is the killer these days. Even a load of laundry seems overwhelming. The last two days have been rough. I have felt like I was hit by a school bus, no appetite, nausea that has not let up even with meds and the urgency to pee that sends me running. This afternoon I started putting all my symptoms together and as every good nurse does, diagnosed myself with a bladder infection. A call to my ob, a urine analysis, and a prescription should hopefully make tomorrow a much better day. And if I wasn't sure I had a bladder infection I confirmed it tonight when throwing up I was peeing my pants at the same time...the pure joys of pregnancy! 

Enough about me and now for the love my little girls have for their siblings. Last Sunday evening we got a sitter and headed over to my parents for some adult time with my sister, her boyfriend, my cousin and his wife. We had a wonderful time even though I don't think Paul remembers much of the later part of the night! Natalie woke when we got home so I went to tuck her in and told her she could go back to sleep because mommy and daddy where home. She responded, "and the babies"? I told her yes they were home too and she said "okay, good night". I then went to carry Aubrey to bed who had fallen asleep in our room. As I laid her down she turned and rubbed my belly and said, "Good night babies". Oh how I love my girls. They are so excited to be big sisters again. Drew also spends time each day lifting up my shirt and giving the babies hugs and kisses.

 I still can not believe we will be parents to four more kiddos! How amazing is that? We will be meeting with the high risk ob on Monday and will get another ultrasound. We are very excited for this appointment because we have lots of questions that we can't wait to have answered. And since I am a little bit of a planner (insert wink here!) I will be happy to have somewhat of plan laid out. Now all I need is for my body to do its job! If any of you have a question you would like me to answer feel free to leave it on the comment section and I will answer it. See you all on Monday for an ultrasound update!

March 05, 2012

And then there were FOUR!!!!

I don't even know what to say, we are in a state of complete shock so bear with me through this long post. Today started out with us having a lazy morning as a family of five and expecting triplets. I laid in bed waiting for my zofran to kick in while reading a book, Natalie laid next to me doing her deep reading of Dave Ramsey(she said she wanted to read a mommy book), and Aubrey & Drew were making a swimming pool in the shower with dad. It was awesome. We then got up and daddy made everyone oatmeal and we made it over to grandma's to drop of the kids. I was a ball of nerves this morning scared off two circumstances; we wouldn't find all three heartbeats this morning or we would find one embryo had split. As soon as they started the ultrasound I knew I was seeing way too many sacs and babies. I looked at the doctor and said, "how many is that?" His answer, "four." The dread I had all weekend had come true except one didn't split, one of our "littles" was hiding last week. Oh my I am carrying quads and this was not part of my plan. I was totally okay with triplets...I could do that. I am so scared with quads. This is my blog and I will be telling my true feelings because this is my journal for this adventure. We made it through the measuring of all four babies or gummies as that is what they look like this week. I asked the doctor what he thinks of all four making it to viability as long as my body does its job? He said that with the way they all look, are measuring and their heartbeats were all within a couple of beats from each other he says he thinks they will all make it. Baby A, B & D had heartbeats of 174 and Baby C was 176. We joked through the ultrasound and the humor was what I needed. At one point I looked back at Paul who was leaning up against a wall and told him, "I hope we love each other because their is no one who is ever going to date us with seven kids." As soon as the doctor and assistant left the room I melted into my husbands arms and just cried. I wish I could tell you they were tears of happiness but they were tears of being scared for the babies God had intrusted to me. 

I am so scared for the health of the children I am carrying. I work in the nicu and see babies born at 26 weeks. I do not want that for my children, heck I don't even want them born at 32 weeks. How am I going to be strong enough to be a nicu mom and leave my children every night. For those that don't know me super well I am 100% type A. My kids don't even go to day care because I don't want someone else raising my kids. People aren't allowed to drive my kids unless it's my mom or sister. Paul and I don't go on vacation by ourselves because how would I leave my little loves? Now I will be on bed rest and not be able to be active in my three oldest children's life this summer and then I will have four kids in the nicu and I will have no control there either. 

I am also worried about me. I will give everything to get these children here safely but I know the strain that it will put on me. I remember when I was about 37 weeks with the twins and couldn't take it any longer. I stood in the shower and just cried because my body couldn't take another day because I was so uncomfortable. Paul was right there and told me I could. That I was doing this for our babies and I knew that to be the truth but my body hurt all over and I had a condition that made me itch every where. I am scared for these days with the quads. I know I will have them. There will be days when I want to be done and I am fearful of these days because I know they are bad. 

The last thing I am scared about is finances. I have a wonderful paying job but will be out of work by week 18 and collecting disability which is not 100% pay. Paul is doing consulting work for an engineering company and currently looking for a full time job. Not the best of times to be bringing four more kids into our finances. I know things will work out but boy is it scary. Good thing we have been living on a pretty tight budget this last year! 

The one thing I do know is that I am married to the best person ever to be on this adventure with. He is the best husband and the most wonderful father. The support he has already provided me and will continue to give means the world to me. As he told me today, "at least we won't be lonely when we are old." Love his outlook on this. 

The greatest joy I have in life are my children and I know we are so blessed to be getting a gift of four more. My sister has always said ever since I realized what a mom was that it is all I have ever wanted to be. It is so true. Paul and I have also always wanted a large family but just maybe not 7 kids under four and a half!! We ask you more than ever to keep us in your prayers. If you belong to a church with a prayer group could you please add our "littles" to it. We specifically ask you to pray for the health of all four of our babies and that Paul and I can continue to be strong for each other when in doubt. We are not in control of this situation, God is and so we will turn this over to Him and let him lead the way.

The Lesnau Quads

March 02, 2012

Week 7

Another week done and a little closer to the end of the first trimester. I am hoping I am one of the lucky ones and get some relief from morning sickness once I hit the second trimester. One can only hope! I started zofran (an anti-nausea med) last weekend so I am getting some relief from the constant all day nausea. I have also figured out that as soon as the nausea hits if I can get some food down the nausea "episode" won't be as intense or long. The other morning I thought maybe I don't need the zofran, and that lasted all of an hour and the  entire day was awful. So now I get up around 7 and take it and then crawl back into bed for at least thirty minutes. This seems to be the trick. The only down side of zofran is that I now need to take colace twice a day and metamucil three times a day. The joys of pregnancy!

The other night Natalie and Aubrey were very concerned at dinner time because we only have one seat left at the table. They were wondering where all the babies were going to sit. I explained that it will be a while before they are sitting at the table to eat with us and we will get them seats. Natalie then stated that she would move over and so could Aubrey and they could share their side of the table so we could all fit! Love my girls...

So people have been asking when we will find out the sex of the babies. Our answer is in the delivery room! We have never found out the gender with the other kids and just couldn't imagine not having that surprise on their birth day. And we have also decided not to share any of the names before hand either which my mother may write me out of her will for! So besides A,B, & C we have been calling them Bentley, Mercedes and Lexus around our house.

On Monday we will be having another ultrasound to see our "littles" and mom and dad are so excited. We can't wait to see how much they have grown and are praying that no one has split! I will update after our ultrasound but for now I will leave you with a picture of my "big" kids.

A night ride before bed

Dress up is a daily event which usually consist of four dresses layered on top of each other.

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